Forgiveness is no easy feat. I blamed myself for years for not “fighting back” or “fleeing” from my attacker. The guilt becoming so unbearable at times that I would just sob.
But slowly over time, I began to understand that I did what I needed to do in order to get out of the situation alive. If I had fought back, I might not be here today. If I had tried to flee, I might not be here today. That spin on my decision making eventually led to forgiveness. Forgiveness of my actions. Forgiveness of my thoughts. Forgiveness of myself. And with that forgiveness came a wave of peace and the heaviest weight off my shoulders.
I still may not forgive everything and everyone regarding my case, but none of that seems to matter since I am at peace with myself.
Earlier this week, I discovered @theunsilentsurvivor, reading that “the body decides the best way to get through trauma without dying.” Could that not be more true! It spoke to me, and I know it will speak to others too.
Take care of yourselves and always remember you are not alone in whatever journey you are on ✨
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