Holy shit. Pardon my French. I feel as though I have lived a lifetime since my last Beaded Survivor post. So here we are on St. Patrick’s Day, in the midst of a worldwide pandemic, pending shutdowns, widespread panic, a whole lot of unknown, and no toilet paper. Please note, however, that the Brooks family should be fine with regards to toilet paper. I typically stockpile it anyway. No need to worry about us on that front. But I digress.
I have gone through a complete whirlwind of emotions over the past week or so due to COVID-19. Everything from thinking everyone is insane to gathering a few extra things at the store to denial to panic to sadness to frustration then back to denial to shock to stockpiling all the things to high anxiety and this cycle on repeat. It is truly the weirdest time I have ever experienced in my life. It’s like we are living in this purgatory of wanting to continue living our lives but not knowing what is going to happen when we do.
And yes, we never really know what is going to happen in our lives. But this virus has taken that unknown to an entirely new level. Some are not worried at all, some just a smidge, some are in a decent state of fear, and some are in full-blown panic mode. Some are cautiously optimistic while others have chosen to self-quarantine. Some have tested positive, some are extremely high risk, some have it that don’t realize it, some sneeze and want to run to the doctor. Whichever category you fall into or perhaps you don’t fall into a category at all, nobody saw this coming. Well, maybe some did. But I sure as hell didn’t.
So how do we handle it all? I think it really depends on your perspective. This is a scary time. People are dying and the world is actively trying to play catch up. I am the first to admit that I hate feeling out of control. And I do right now. But I am trying to find the silver linings in this. And there are a few.
Let me caveat this by saying that my family is currently healthy, and I am so incredibly grateful for that. It pains me, however, that there are so many families who are not in the same position. To those families, I am constantly thinking of you and wishing you all the best.
As for the couple silver linings, the first is major. I honestly cannot think of another time where my little family of four has been home together for this amount of time and for the foreseeable future. There is beauty in this time as we are hunkering down and preparing for the worst. My husband is working from home, and we have pulled our kids from their preschools. When has that ever been the case? Never. I may and most likely will feel differently about this in the coming days and weeks. But for now, bring on the imaginations, creativity, make-believe, forts, pillow fights, and whatever else will get us through this time, all while trying to remain calm and make the best of it. We currently have a 6 foot airplane pool float blown up in my oldest son’s room. So there’s that.
A second silver lining: I don’t think our home will ever be more organized. When you’re limiting your exposure to the outside world, there is nothing better to do than organize. Am I right? To date, we have rearranged our playroom, cleaned out my husband’s closet, discovered many treasures hidden within our kitchen junk drawer, purged our garage, and evaluated what we actually need from the crap that stays on top of our fridge. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.
And the last lining I’ll touch on for now is that of a “forced” slow down. There is no school. No going into the office if you can work from home. No doctors’ appointments, unless 100% necessary. No weekend sports games. No sports to watch period. No important errands to run. No gatherings. No expected travel. We are literally being advised to stay home. There’s only so much organizing one can do. And granted, those that must work from home, must work. But god forbid we get to catch up on those books we’ve been wanting to read or not feel guilty for binge watching an entire season of Love is Blind or do puzzles or paint or nap. We are being “forced” to take care of ourselves, something we don’t do enough of.
Now for the perspective. Through these silver linings, I am reminded of just how fortunate I am and how much we take for granted. My kids are home with us. Furthermore, we have a safe home to live in. We have plenty of food and supplies to last us through a complete shutdown, whatever that may look like. My husband has the ability to work from home, with little to no fear of losing his job. To emphasize this point again, my family is healthy at this time and has no underlying health conditions causing them to need medical attention right now.
The flip side of this, is the perspective of those not so fortunate. The hourly wage workers who have no choice but to continue going to work in order to get paid. And then in the event of a shutdown, the risk of not getting paid. Healthcare professionals who are tirelessly working around the clock to provide care the best they can. The children who may not have enough food because they are currently not attending school. Small business owners and all business owners for that matter. Our economy as a whole is taking a nosedive, leaving more uncertainty than I would argue ever before. Those who are already sick with another condition that may not receive the medical care they need because of the outrageous demand. Those who are otherwise perfectly healthy, have contracted this vicious virus, and died as a result. It’s all of these situations that put life into perspective. It forces us to take a step back and look at what really is important. And remind us that tomorrow is never guaranteed.
The perspective bead is one that is always there, but not always seen. However, let’s make it a prominent bead on our necklaces right now. Let’s be mindful that everyone is in differing stages of how to navigate this new normal. Let’s be diligent in the concept of social distancing to ensure we are all doing our part to stop the COVID-19 spread. Let’s all share in the perspective that while you as an individual may be and remain unscathed by this virus, there are millions who won’t.
So for now, hug the ones you live with, bump elbows with those you greet, stay home if you can, find your silver linings, take care of yourselves, and for the love of god wash your hands.
P.S. No online shopping month has gone completely out the window. These are unprecedented times, and I feel that anything goes right now.